happily aching
have you tried tearing newspaper free-hand? ever wondered why it's possible to tear it vertically in a straight line but impossible to do so horizontally?HMMMM.
i vividly remembered a scene from my dream last night. my little sister and i were at ntuc, sweets section. there was an offer on yupi gummies - $1.85 for two. i recalled that we picked one packet each of mini burger, strawberry kisses, mini bears and fun gun (or sth like that; those small colourful ones. ) my sis was carrying the ntuc basket when we had a debate abt whether mum will allow us to buy so much. i remember saying nevermind lahh, take it that i buy for my teammates lor.
SEE. eat, sleep, dream : CANOE. must be rimmel and the tidbits she brought for saturday trg. promised i'd buy more for her to keep the wrapper. speaking of which, shall do a recount of ytd. early morning downpour left rina, leilei, mmel, lihui and i immobile at the bus stop as we relied on eye power to communicate with our teammates across the road. while freaking ourselves out seeing lightning streaks across the sky, nice rina patiently (note the use of this adjective, cos it was a reaaaallly long story) entertained us with a story abt tortoises. oh and we talked abt yimtong's canoe funds. number one on the list is to give the macritchie toilet a makeover, next is to build a shelter for the overhead bridge. haoxia wants to include buy new boat to the list. alas, there was sunshine after the rain. down on water, it was a thoroughly refreshing experience. long-dist on k2 with yihang; no longer have my heart in my mouth when i plunge my paddle into the water for each stroke. went up to 1000m and down the lanes consecutively. smooth and sweet. haoxia is finally willing to "communicate" with us too. cheers to dryness. killer crunches after that (haoxia says: "i like slopes.") were neck-breaking and back-bruising. woke up aching all over, but feels good to be aching. followed by lunch with soph, yimtong, lihui, mmel and yihang. talked, analysed, traded news, shared our doubts and took turns to stone. worried abt poor sophia who was feverish.. i know we're all pushing ourselves very hard and fretting abt missing trgs. do rmb we can only train efficiently when we're in the best of health alright? take care girl. am praying with all my heart that each and every senior and fellow juniors will conquer all hindrance to health so that we'll be a team packed with ultimate power in no time.
pardon this entry being devoid of smileys. no solemness intended for the above paragraph yup.
lately, much against my wishes, i've apparently been the cause of domestic strife. seems i've been disobedient, stubborn, unable to manage my life and setting a bad example to siblings. my concern appears to be redundant, my opinions appear to be criminal. thanks mum, for assuring that i'm right. it's ironic how speaking my mind is a trait i inherited from you. i know you mean well and everything you do is out of the goodness of ur heart (if only you conveyed it in a way that inflicts less hurt). it's alright, i wont wince when i have to bend my wrist, nor will i grimace when pressure is applied to my lower back. i wont tell you my nose is stuffy or that i'm slowly losing my tastebuds as well. no worries, peace out?
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I think about the things I've gotta do
Damn, my mind is gonna blow
I'm freaking out, about what's ahead
Maybe I'll just stay in bed
'Cause it's no fun to be the one going out of my head
So I tell it to myself again
You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up, you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
What can you say?
You're gonna have good day
my lack of communication with you over the past couple of days has been pricking my conscience. letting the unspoken accumulate then allowing it to fade into oblivion with time. this shouldnt be the way. yet you unrelentingly gave me assurance and even apologized though there was entirely entirely no reason for you to be sorry at all. i'm greatly moved that you care so much.. do know that i'm not pushing you away; it's just i dont wish to burden you with matters that i might have overreacted to and dont wish for you to see that.. sometimes i easily crumble. i'm genuinely sorry i made you unhappy, cheer up alright?
i'll make it up to you.

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